Have you ever had one of those days or weeks where things feel like they are not going the way you had hoped. That outside forces are pressuring you to do things in such away that you feel like your not you? Your not teaching the way you had hoped, and your worried if your students are learning all they should.
This past week was a struggle, I’m not exactly sure why or if there are words to express, other than, it’s just been one of those weeks.
But than something happened, and this one small thing made the biggest difference not only with me in the classroom, but me in my everyday life. One of my students walked up to me and smiled and said, “I made this for you Ms. Harkin”. It was a folded piece if paper.
As I stood there, she said, “well, open it” with an excited smile on her face. I stood there for a moment thinking, do I have time for this? I knew it would take but a moment to open, I looked up at my class seeing that I was losing their attention, I blinked and looked down again at this folded piece of paper, and opened it. As I read what was inside, I almost began to cry. I looked at my students and thought they are fine, it will only take a clap of my hands or the ring of a bell and they will all look at me again ready to learn. I took a deep breath and sat down, looking up at the student who had written me this card. Looking up at her I said, “Thank You…..Thank You”. She gave me a hug and ran back to her friends.
What took just one moment of slowing down, changed my day from “one of those days”, to a day that changed the way I saw and felt about myself. I had received the gift of seeing myself through the eyes of a student. She had no idea of my own internal struggles that day and week. My own self doubt. My questioning of self. My student had given me a great gift of self awareness. She showed me with her simple gift, how much I do make a difference in the lives of my students. In that one moment I was me again.